i was an auctioneer!

totally just 'sold'humans at Naacp charity auction honoring Chairman Julian Bond....-started off by saying- i'm not gonna use word auction, cause there's humans involved...was all in very good fun, for charity, also added- 'think of this as the week on NPR, kcrw, when you DONATE to support, and i'm your Ira Glass... was held at jude mathis house.. 1 word people, plastics. no, actually syndication.
jusge mathis went from gang kid, to youngest judge in his area, to world known tv show... that's chutzpah. last time i attended party at his house the LA Mayor flew in party on helicopter... syndication, y'all. totally regret not grabbing lunch w/ Mr Julian Bond, bid, i mean donation, was high but could/should have! argh #failtotalktolegendoverlunch

ps.. faceless sam- those pics of kids are unbelievably beautiful, and sad since the day you put your dog down...

I am she as you are he as you are me and we are all together.

proof i am me.... i put this up because online sites have fakes, and need verification... not cause i like spouting off urls...

clumsy and kissy

lots of people ask, who sang theme song to H&H- Melonie Daniels did,not me!!!! lots of people still ask about H&H, and tho we were a family, it's been done long enough for me to go..oh, was that me?!.... i def keep in touch w/ lot's of people from H&H!
um, so here's a montage of some H&H and old movie clips that 'was' me, or more correctly me playing other people, at one time or another...i call this mash up
'clumsy and kissy'
has some fun clips from a gregg araki movie,Nowhere, not porn btw....
funny for me to see old clips...it's so far from here...in this moment today, working on indie film projects the same, also making my own documentary, feeling life for real, w/o the safety net of dialogue written, and character to cloak myself in....I ♥ you Mona tho!!!
...well until the 4pm syndi episode... which i've never watched btw.... xxRT
oh forgot to add 2nd song is by supreme beings of leisure-never the same girl. it's on my music player that you should shut off before watching video btw. True

what if you could fly

still looking at clouds from both sides....

behind scenes ay H&H video

really grainy old old footage from behind the scenes 1st year on Half& Half. thank for all the comments, emails etc that you were disappointed when it ended. one word-Chase. xx true

to shut off auto music player

go to music player, 2nd down on left panel and press play/pause... that way you can watch videos w/ no extra bg music. same deal to start player again.. press play/pause button. some of you have said it 'covers' the page... d you mean it's not in its box and covering blog? or that the music is always in?


i checked blog on iphone and looked fine.. could be an IE pc issue? i use safari or foxfire...

ohhh, this too too solid flesh...

this is me last summer...
i'm posting it because i need the motivation...to stop eating crap! i know i'll never be a waif, but this smaller curvy size suits me better than where my body is and naturally likes to hover.. got some working out to gets on...do so miss my private yoga classes, (cue bougie worlds smallest violin)
is it silly to still wanna look your best, even tho ones over the age America deems valuable, which is like 25 or so.... i don't think so...the french woman wear life well... and for me i guess, as an actor the body is the instrument...
and along my journey there's plenty of jobs my ass has legitimately been too big for the ideal...blame lies some where between my own self sabotage & oprah style eating, as much as Hollywoods desire for women to have bodies of teen boy... but i guess we should leave that topic for another time, don't you think? x RT ps that's what real boobs look like LA dudes...

love it....

Henna bridal hands are gorgeous...

so many people, so many choices. big girls must make...

here comes the sun.... the son and heir.. of everything in particular.

sometimes... it's just a paradigm shift... an epiphany... a new opening...a new life...
thoughts, the moon rocks of the desert,friends, nothing, everything, anything i want....

hmmmnnn..

i've realized my last few dates have talked ad nauseum re their old girlfriends.... at first i thought i was a lesson for me to deal w/ jealousy.. at 1st, by that i mean 15 mins ish, it probably was/is. i mean jealousy is base. unneeded ancient wiring, if you have trust you're golden....i believe it's true, because i've experienced it, that if a guys into you, he'll move galaxies to please you... to be near you.

Now i realize these new talky dudes are just kinda lame and lacking in social graces... think they are trying to impress me w/ who they dated etc...the dialogue wasn't about their own patterns.. it was 'so and so did this f'd up thing to me', or 'so and so likes that too'... kinda a convo ender.

it's never been my MO to talk of specific people, rather maybe patterns i've had in relationships if it came up...at appropriate times.
almost each of my ex's held their own, and presently aren't in the room so why talk about them...
in summation- dudes... i could give 2 flying fucks that you & old GF liked to get pinkberry before watching a video... seriously, go away and grab a pinkberry w/ whats er name.
signed, bored w/ average guys.