on catching the wave of vibration

so... listening to the wind & thinking of the ashes we came from and return to...hey lil' bro i hear you... pic from after services, amoungst tears and pain there is laughter, to celebrate the life that was....

green dude

Now i love teeny tiny dude... he was like 1/8 to 1/4 inch long...hope he makes it! i love snapping bug photos- go figure...

my sisters new baby toy!

seriously, unless you know my sister, really don't watch this, i'm posting it public so her friends can see her delicious new baby... otherwise you'll be like, i have a 2 month old baby, i could of shot that- and yes you could have...
or you'll be like, why do i need to see rachel babbling on to a baby?, you don't. so save yourself.
unless you love listening to me catching a 2 month old up on this weeks gossip.

To my sis, remember when you played this song for me waaaaaay before your own family?! super neat you have a new toy baby!!!! xx Rachel

Taming the beat

training my 20lb dog...i mean cat...i mean Dorse...

i feel green today.... like a Lorelie who lives in the sea, playing in serpents... ps have music player on botton left of page, give it a click, Lorelie's have eclectic eccentric tastes...

I'm working on writing, finishing a script i've got going, i love writing... sometimes i do let my characters wander...so i'm all about the structure at the moment...
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i dream of being a gypsy traveling round...and getting paid for it...

Zimbabwe and baby elephant toes.... from Rachel True on Vim

Baby elephant toes!
Every one should travel to Africa!!!!!! and play w/ baby elephants.... i was there amazed at number of German, Asian tourists in Africa, but precious few Americans, that's our education system for you.... we all go to Europe 1st.... we're such a eurocentric colonial country when it comes down to it. x true

I love this dude.....

spring

Other brother in arms RIP 2008

Roc Wolfgang Reeder was 28, a brilliant sun son....i imagine he's surfing waves across the galaxy. RIP 2008, his was 1st my funeral ever.
i think of him a lot, a lot, a lot....he's still teaching me, every day.....

older brother in arms

when i was @ 9 months-4 yrs and living w/ lovely old people, Oma and Opa, foster care, but not really, but kinda actually - people found in the paper who took in kids, my folks indisposed shall we say...- my older brother bunked above me and quite often peed the bed...i wondered why when he was the elder by years? why he'd throw bubble gum at my hair during the night resulting in having to cut it all off.... just why?

Many secrets later, i know i'm fortunate to have not seen the images burning up his little mind. glad i missed it, who wants another baby round when the shit's going down...

I called Aaron the elder, to let him know our younger 1/2 brother Roc, had passed. Sadly, brother Aaron had managed to avoid EVER meeting other brother due to his pesky 20 yr drug haze.

he freaked and yelled a lot, like it was my doing he'd never met Roc and his time bomb of a heart condition...
splotchy silent tears despite knowing his anger was at himself...
family, u gotta love them but they'll get you every time.

what's silly is memories of this were triggered whilst watching 'the women, goupies, of the hair band LA sunset strip scene', on VH1. mentioned old style hollywood clubs.....

when i was a very underage teen on a rare visit to my mom in LA, we went straight from airport to the Cathay De Grand, she knew everyone there and instucted me to say I was her sister, which i did. then an after hours spot... then another after hours spot.... elder brother never got to pretend he was her brother...yet he's the one w/ drug issues, NOT me..how is that possible? then i remember...i didn't see what he saw.
look at that face, os full of promise...a beautiful beautiful boy... at this age already carrying so much on his little shoulders, i guess that's the kinda weight that you never drop....