behind scenes ay H&H video

really grainy old old footage from behind the scenes 1st year on Half& Half. thank for all the comments, emails etc that you were disappointed when it ended. one word-Chase. xx true

to shut off auto music player

go to music player, 2nd down on left panel and press play/pause... that way you can watch videos w/ no extra bg music. same deal to start player again.. press play/pause button. some of you have said it 'covers' the page... d you mean it's not in its box and covering blog? or that the music is always in?


i checked blog on iphone and looked fine.. could be an IE pc issue? i use safari or foxfire...

ohhh, this too too solid flesh...

this is me last summer...
i'm posting it because i need the motivation...to stop eating crap! i know i'll never be a waif, but this smaller curvy size suits me better than where my body is and naturally likes to hover.. got some working out to gets on...do so miss my private yoga classes, (cue bougie worlds smallest violin)
is it silly to still wanna look your best, even tho ones over the age America deems valuable, which is like 25 or so.... i don't think so...the french woman wear life well... and for me i guess, as an actor the body is the instrument...
and along my journey there's plenty of jobs my ass has legitimately been too big for the ideal...blame lies some where between my own self sabotage & oprah style eating, as much as Hollywoods desire for women to have bodies of teen boy... but i guess we should leave that topic for another time, don't you think? x RT ps that's what real boobs look like LA dudes...

love it....

Henna bridal hands are gorgeous...

so many people, so many choices. big girls must make...

here comes the sun.... the son and heir.. of everything in particular.

sometimes... it's just a paradigm shift... an epiphany... a new opening...a new life...
thoughts, the moon rocks of the desert,friends, nothing, everything, anything i want....

hmmmnnn..

i've realized my last few dates have talked ad nauseum re their old girlfriends.... at first i thought i was a lesson for me to deal w/ jealousy.. at 1st, by that i mean 15 mins ish, it probably was/is. i mean jealousy is base. unneeded ancient wiring, if you have trust you're golden....i believe it's true, because i've experienced it, that if a guys into you, he'll move galaxies to please you... to be near you.

Now i realize these new talky dudes are just kinda lame and lacking in social graces... think they are trying to impress me w/ who they dated etc...the dialogue wasn't about their own patterns.. it was 'so and so did this f'd up thing to me', or 'so and so likes that too'... kinda a convo ender.

it's never been my MO to talk of specific people, rather maybe patterns i've had in relationships if it came up...at appropriate times.
almost each of my ex's held their own, and presently aren't in the room so why talk about them...
in summation- dudes... i could give 2 flying fucks that you & old GF liked to get pinkberry before watching a video... seriously, go away and grab a pinkberry w/ whats er name.
signed, bored w/ average guys.

some days... some days... i feel like a squashed fairie...

ps- i really want this dress from last season. anyone over theirs and would like to give it to me?

insomnia and Salome if she was a tween in 1997

'Bring me the head of john the baptist on a platter.. or scary spice, either will do... you said anything if i did my veil shtick...'- salome
i think Oscar Wilde would feel me on this....

things I'm working on...

so i make collages, this is kinda like a collage, of a few thoughts roaming round....
what do you wanna change re yourself? and what do you like about yourself....

adventures in babysitting Fynn

then i taught him the African Xhosa clicking language, we planted sun fower seeds, drank a 40, and then... i actually really did feed him some (precooked) chicken nuggets his mom left...later she told me i was supposed to nuke them 1st...who knew?
i give it up to you parents, love the kids, want one ... someday.