Saturday, May 9

i am wondering when i will feel like a grown up....

the 1st pic is from last fall...

because i still just feel like me... which i dig, cause me's alright by me... i guess i thought it would feel... i don't know...know i've grown when i look at my past.. maybe that's what feeling like a grownup is... being able to accept ones self, flaws and all... and not feel defensive when those flaws are pointed out or rear up like a chimera of the past....old habits are certainly ingrained, but i dig new ways of thinking and creating life, not just the life reported on the news... like if i hear 'in these troubled times' one more time on the news...

visit from Mr. Wilde, who'll be beaming down shortly it's said, will do nicely, he brings out the best in me. Mr. Kafka is out 1 guest room.

oh how much i've changed btw... not that i mind... a friend of my dads took this... so i was grown, but some how uncle bruce brought out the girl in the would be woman...

rachel true


  1. You will never feel like a grown up because you are always growing! But then again, maybe if you had kids

  2. I feel the same way too. Not grown up at all.

  3. I can totally relate to that feeling...

  4. I used to wonder what I'd be when I grew up.

    Then for years I wondered if I would ever grow up.

    Now I enjoy forever looking at the world with childlike wonder.

    Welcome to the club!

  5. It takes a long time to become young.
    -Pablo Picasso

  6. I'm wondering the same thing. I still feel like me, just more free to express it.

  7. Oh--is that a real lion? Because if so, you're a brave one!

  8. Hi, this John True! :) I wanted to comment on yours with my blog to be fair :). I just turned 40 May 2 and I was so sure I would feel grown up then! Of course I also thought I'd have been married with a couple kids and a career
    What I am learning is that there is phrase that came to me: "The past is past and this has nothing to do with a future that may not happen." I guess what i want most is to be comfortable in my own skin. I get upset when I get frustrated or teased, but at the same time I don't quite understand why people praise me! I'm much better than I was, it's a process and it's an improving one that lessens the anxiety more and more.

    "Youth is wasted on the young" ~ George Bernard Shaw

  9. Its the body that ages, not the spirit. You will always be a kid at heart, or at least that's what the elders have told me. Important to learn from experience so your joy increases ...

  10. haven't changed that much at still look the same!! you age very well i must say.